Title: BE AWAKE
Author: Ai Mori
Fandom/band: Jrock/LUNA SEA
Pairing: J x INORAN
Rating: PG here
Disclaimer: I don't own both of them, its purely just an imagination
Author notes: I get the inspiration from SHINE era,so I imagine both of them in the SHINE era looks. And sorry if I write the wrong sentences or grammar,still studying English until now (^^)
STORY
This feeling is really making him frustrated. Inoran gave another fierce look to the man who is standing next to him and busily putting on his long fingers on the bass fretboard. Actually its not J's fault at all if he felt like this. But somehow he thinks that J should at least notice how he feels. These times they only see each other just because of the band's rehearsal.
They used to hang-out and talked about music before. But it all changed when J knew that girl. Yeah, that silly girl who changed J. Ino knows that J isn't the type of man who will act like a womanizer. But the way J's so crazy for her is somehow making him annoyed. Because J always makes her his number one and even making him - his long-life best friend - less noticed by him.
And the more frustrating part for Ino is when he realized that he is - in fact - falling in love with J. It is the reason why he became more and more dislike the girl. Its him who supposed to get all of that attention from J, not her. She doesn't even know J as much as he did.
But J is too blind to see how much his relationship with that girl affecting Ino. He won't realized unless Ino said it straight in front of him. Meanwhile, to do that, required much more courage than standing in front of the audience. Because if J didn't feel the same way, Ino will be the one who get the shame, maybe for the rest of his life.
"You look scary, Ino, what happened?" Sugizo noticed his friend's fierce look in today's rehearsal.
"Nothing," Ino briefly replied.
J stopped playing and take a glance at Ino, who already look away from him.
"What's wrong?", J asked.
"Nothing wrong," Ino stand up and grabbed his cigarettes. Just in time when J wants to talk to Ino again, J's phone ringing. He answered the phone with a smile on his face, while Ino, noticing that its a call from that girl, stepped outside from the studio.
God, why he had to be like this? Ino sighed as he arrived in the rooftop. He should be happy. He shouldn't have this kind of jealousy. Jealousy is not good to your mind, Ino keep repeating himself. But he couldn't have a clear mind whenever he saw J talked or going with that girl. Ino rarely hates anyone, not even J fans, but this time he really wish that J never see her again.
***
"Can I have a reposition?", Inoran's voice disrupt the rehearsal today.
"What do you mean a reposition?", Ryuichi asked.
"I mean..... Can I be in Sugi-chan's position on stage?"
Ryuichi surprised, and not only him, but all LUNA SEA members looks surprised.
"But all this time I always be the lead guitar," Sugizo said with a questioning looks on his face.
Inoran sighed, "you're still being the lead guitar. What I mean is..." Inoran walked to where Sugizo stands and pushing Sugizo away. "This."
"Eeeeeh? But ever since Lunacy was made, you were always beside Jun, right?", Sugizo still wondering what happened in his bandmate's mind.
Inoran throw a fierce look to J, who seems confused with what he did. "I just want to be in another position."
Ryuichi sighed. "Well, I guess someone's not in the mood to do the rehearsal today," Ryuichi packed up his stuff and then walked away.
"Where are you going?" Sugizo asked.
"Home. The tour will start soon, I want to prepare myself." Ryuichi walked out from the studio.
Shinya preparing his stuff too. "Well, I guess our rehearsal is done for now."
"You better settled up your problems, guys," Sugizo stare at both J and Inoran.
"I don't have any problems with Ino," J defend himself.
Sugizo shook his head and leave after taking his bag, along with Shinya.
Inoran is busily plugged-out his guitar cable when he felt that J is standing near to him.
"What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing," Inoran still keep busying himself by preparing his stuff.
"Don't always say nothing like that!"
"Its really nothing, you shouldn't worry about that," Inoran closed his guitar bag and about to leave when a strong arms grabbed his upper arm and forced him to stay. "Let me go, Jun!"
"I won't until you say what's your problem with me. Why you always ignoring me?"
"You won't understand."
"I will if you explained it to me."
"No. So let me go!" Inoran trying to let go of himself from J's strong arms.
"I won't."
J still holding his arms until Inoran feels a little bit ache on his upper arms.
"You're hurting me," Inoran trying to free himself.
"Why you keep on avoiding me? Am I doing something wrong to you? Tell me, Ino!"
Inoran suddenly diverting his gaze to somewhere else when J stared right into his eyes.
"You won't understand," he mutters. "I.. I do that because.... Because I..," damn! Why is it so hard to say that words to Jun? Inoran cursed himself.
"What?"
"I... love....." Suddenly J's cellphone ringing, cutting Inoran halfway before saying his true feelings to J.
"Shit!" J grabbed his cellphone and thus making Inoran's arm free from his grab. J is still busily answered his phone when Inoran saying "Baka Junjun!" before he left J all alone in the room.
***
Ever since that day, the relationship between J and Inoran changed. Inoran can no longer look to J as his best friend. He tried so hard to keep calm whenever J around him, but then, he felt that even looking to J is a hard thing to do.
That's why, he keeps on avoiding J from now. They no longer share the same hotel room and the same bus. Inoran always wants to stay in a different floor when they have to stay in a hotel. Even on stage, Inoran always walked away whenever J came approaching him.
Afraid that this will make a separation to the band, Sugizo decided to talk to Inoran today after their rehearsal.
Inoran already preparing his stuff. He will be the first one to leave now, so he could avoid talking to J.
"I'm leaving," Inoran takes his bag and leave the studio.
"Wait," Sugizo followed him outside. "Will you tell me what happened between both of you?"
"Eh?" Inoran looks confused.
"There's something between you and Jun, right?"
Inoran laughed, "ah, its not a big problem, Sugi-chan."
"Yes it is. You've been avoiding him for a month. You guys were always together before."
"I just felt like it...," Inoran stares into the window. From here, he could see what happened inside the studio. J is still busy with his bass.
"Why? Its very rare to see the twinbee separated like this. Are you having a fight with him?", Sugizo asked.
Inoran shook his head, "its not that..." He kept his gaze to J. Actually, he's not really avoiding J. He always watching J from far away, wondering if his feeling for J will disappear if he make a distance between them. But it won't. It just kept getting stronger day by day.
"Then what?" Sugizo watching Inoran. "You're acting like a girl who wants to make a love confession."
Inoran just stay quiet. He can't take his eyes away from J. J is now standing in front of his amplifier, without wearing his shirt and still talking about something to Ryuichi.
Yeah, no wonder that girl likes J so much. J got a nice body. J got talent. J is nice to everyone. J always looks so hot. While he will always be the opposite of J. The shy and calm guitarist. The unseen one.
"I do.. want to confess it...." Inoran murmurs.
"What?" Sugizo come closer and following Inoran's gaze. Then he noticed something, "don't tell me that you are in love....."
Inoran nodded. "I love Jun," he said with a low voice, as if afraid that J will heard it.
"Then... He knows?"
Inoran shook his head again. "No..."
"Why didn't you tell him, Ino?"
"Because he already got a girlfriend." Inoran finally looks away.
Sugizo quiet for a while, then said, "at least, if you tell it to him, you could feel more relieved. He really should know how's your feeling for him. Otherwise, he will think that you hate him."
"But, Sugi-chan...."
"Just try it, ok?" Sugizo smiled and patted Inoran's shoulder.
***
(Continue to pt 2)
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