Title: IN SILENCE
Author: Ai Mori
Fandom/band: Jrock/LUNA SEA
Genre: Romance
Rating: M
Pairing: J x INORAN
Disclaimer: I don't own any people here, and I'm not writing this to harm any people on this fic. They are real people and this is pure fiction.
Author: Ai Mori
Fandom/band: Jrock/LUNA SEA
Genre: Romance
Rating: M
Pairing: J x INORAN
Disclaimer: I don't own any people here, and I'm not writing this to harm any people on this fic. They are real people and this is pure fiction.
Author Notes: DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE AGAINST YAOI. Review will be gladly accepted.
this is actually a part of my first LUNA SEA song fics collection in Indonesian which then being translated to English by myself. This story contained several things that unexplained in the original Indonesian story. Please enjoy.
BGM: Loveless - LUNA SEA
IN SILENCE
J is accompanying Sugizo doing his task, choosing the right
object for his photo. Sugizo is now studying photography and he need to find a
good scenery for his college task.
Sugizo asked J to go to the riverside with him, and J accepted
it simply because he's getting bored on his own.
Sugizo is still busily looking for an object to be captured
with his camera while J is just sitting on the ground, smoking.
Suddenly, his eyes caught a young man, apparently on the
same age with him, walking into the river stream. Instead of afraid, that man
seems like enjoying and admiring the river stream in front of him. He kept on
walking into the middle of the river.
Somehow, J noticed that the young man is smiling as if he
found something in the river stream, but then, J got worried because this river
is known as one of the deepest river in Japan.
His worries came true when the man suddenly fell down near
the middle of the river.
Without hesitating, J throw away his cigarette and running
into the river to help that man.
The man is now drowning, he tried to reach out his hands and
gasping as the river stream washed away his body. J grabbed his hand and pulled
him away from the middle part of the river, though the man struggled and try to
release himself from J.
"Don't go there, the river is deep!", J told the
man once they arrived at the riverside.
"Jun-chan, what's wrong?", Sugizo came.
The man staring at J and Sugizo but he didn't say anything,
not even a thank you after J saved his life. He only staring at J and seems
like he doesn't care about his wet body. J is the same too because his clothes
are getting wet when he saved this man. Then J noticed how this man is so
beautiful, he almost look like a girl. He got a long brown hair and also a sharp
eyes.
"Are you okay?", Sugizo asked to the man. That man
answered Sugizo with another staring right into Sugizo's eyes, but he still
won't say anything. And then he averted his gaze into the ground.
"There you are!", a man came running into them.
"I've been searching for you everywhere," he approaches the young man
who still sitting on the ground.
"He almost drowned in the river," J explained when
the other man looking at him and Sugizo.
"Well, thank you for saving his life," the other
man replied, he helped the young man stand up. "He often came here, but
this is the first time he goes into the river."
"Is he can't talk?", Sugizo asked.
The young man stared again at him. While the other man just
smiled, "he can. But he decided not to talk anymore." That man
noticed how the young man staring at Sugizo and smiled to him, "come on,
Ino, don't be so tense, they saved your life."
The young man suddenly grabbed the other man arms.
"Ah, why don't you come to my place, you have to dry
yourself and also I have to say thank you for saving him," said the other
man.
J and Sugizo agreed with him and followed him. J got shocked
when they arrived in front of a mental clinic.
"Wait, this is....," Sugizo didn't continue his
words. He is surprised too.
"Yes, this is my place. His name is Inoran. And I'm
Kawamura Ryuichi, his therapist," Ryuichi explained.
Inoran stepped into the clinic and left them without saying
anything. J’s
eyes followed him as he goes into one of the room and entered the room.
“So, that Inoran guy, is he one of your patients here?” Sugizo asked.
Ryuichi nods. “He never wants to talk to someone, and he got some problems
too with his emotions.”
Ryuichi stares at J. “Here.
I got dry clothes for you,” Ryuichi tells J to follow him into one of the room. He
gives J a shirt and a pants that he takes from the drawer before leaving him to
change his clothes.
J quickly removes his wet clothes and changes his clothes.
He's already wear the pants and about to wear the shirt when suddenly someone
comes in without warning. J doesn't realize it until he turns his back and just
stand on his feet without saying anything.
It's Inoran. He already change his clothes and just stares
at J too before finally turns his gaze away.
J just stand still. There's something about Inoran that
makes him can't take his eyes off him. He looks so beautiful yet so fragile and
that attracts him to know Inoran more.
***
After that incident, Sugizo is getting more closer to
Ryuichi than to him. He often asks J to accompany him to meet Ryuichi. J
sometimes thinks that maybe Sugizo would tell Ryuichi that he's got a mental
problem too so he could stay at Ryuichi's place.
One thing that makes J agree to accompany Sugizo is the fact
that he could meet Inoran there. Ryuichi often asks Inoran to stay with them,
but Inoran will only sits in the corner and keeping his eye on them without
saying anything. At first, it makes J uncomfortable, but now, he's already
getting used with it.
After a while, J and Sugizo are walking back home from the
clinic.
"Do you like Ryuichi-san?" J suddenly asking to
Sugizo.
"Hmm... Well, I think so," Sugizo answers,
"I'm free to like anyone else, right?"
J grins, "yeah, it's alright. At least we could stay as
a friend."
Now it's Sugizo who laugh, "of course." He pats
J's shoulder, "don't worry about that, ok? See you tomorrow."
J just smiles. He walks alone to his apartment without
noticing that there's someone else who follows him. That person just stay quiet
as he see J enters his apartment room.
***
That day, J just came back from his job, when he see someone
sitting in front of his apartment door. That person is Inoran.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" J looks confused.
Luckily he doesn't have a roommate in this room.
Inoran doesn't answer it. He only stares at the floor, like
a child that has been caught doing something bad and now being scolded by his
parent.
The cold wind is blowing and J notice that Inoran looks
pale, his lips already turns blue and his hands are very cold. J quickly takes
Inoran inside and told him to sit on the sofa while he makes a warm coffee for
him.
As soon as the coffee is finished, J gives him to Inoran
that receives it happily. J takes a can of beer from the refrigerator and asks,
"did you tell Ryuichi-san that you'll come here?"
Inoran stops his drinking. He seems doesn't like it when J
asking about Ryuichi.
"Alright, you can stay here for a while," J says,
"but if he search for you, you must come back." Inoran pouts, he doesn't want to look at J.
J sits beside him, "I really want to know why you came
here. Can you tell me the reason?"
Inoran doesn't answer. He stares at J for a while.
"Well, that's okay, you can talk to me anytime you
want," J gives up after a few minutes of silence, then stand up, "are
you hungry?"
Inoran nods.
"Then, I'll make a dinner for us." J went to the
kitchen and preparing some food. He didn't notice that Inoran is keeping his
eye on him.
***
After a while, J is getting used to have Inoran on his
house. Although Inoran still doesn't want to speak to him, but he begin to
express his thoughts by writing it on a notes. But there's something that J
really wants to know, about why Inoran suddenly stop talking.
J tries to ask it directly to Inoran, but Inoran refused to
explain about it. So he must find another way to found out why he doesn't want
to talk to anyone anymore.
That day, Ryuichi came with Sugizo to J's place. They met with
Inoran who just finished playing with J's guitar.
Inoran just stay quiet when he see Ryuichi. He seems very hesistant
to go. J is still away from home to buy some groceries when Ryuichi and Sugizo
came. Sugizo still have J's roomkey so he can enter the room freely without J's
permission.
"Let's go back, Ino," Ryuichi said, but Inoran
just shake his head. He puts the guitar down and try to run, but before he
managed to escape, Sugizo hold his hand. Inoran struggle to release himself
when suddenly Ryuichi injected a medicine to him and makes him sleep. Sugizo
quickly catch him.
"Let's go now," Ryuichi told Sugizo. Sugizo nods
and takes Inoran with him to go back to the clinic, just in time before J
arrives.
The moment when J finally get back home, he's surprised by
the fact that Inoran was gone. He knows that Inoran won't dare to leave his
place on his own. So, there's only one possibility about where he went.
Ryuichi's clinic.
***
"I'm really sorry, but Inoran-san is under treatment
now, you can't meet him." A guy named Shinya Yamada told J when he wants
to see Inoran in the clinic.
"He's fine now. Ryuichi shouldn't kidnapped him like
that!" J insists.
"But you still can't meet him now."
"Then you should told me why he must doing this
treatment again!"
Shinya just stay quiet for a while. He stares at J. This guy
is so persistent about meeting Inoran. Looks like he won't leave unless he
tells him all about Inoran that he knows. He sigh then starts to explain
everything to J as he takes him to sit on a bench.
So, apparently something bad happened to Inoran in the past.
When he was still in high school, his family was killed in an accident and he
was the only survivor because he didn't join his family on that trip. Knowing
that, the neighbors started to talk about him, they said that he was so
ungrateful because he refused to go with his family before the accident
happened. Inoran also have to sold his house because he was so fed up about
those talks and the fact that none of his family wanted to helped him after
that. In school, he was being bullied over the fact that he was now very poor,
that he can't even join the school trip and have no family to came in a
parent-teacher meeting. All of that burdened up on Inoran's mind, causing him
can't think clearly and killed someone who tried to hit him with a knife. But
that time the police had a hard time to charged him because he refused to talk
to anyone, not even to a lawyer. A psychiatrist has been called and after
several test, they concluded that Inoran has got a mental disorder which caused
him emotion unstable. From that day on, he was being taken care in this clinic
and only Ryuichi that can makes him talk.
When Shinya finished the explanation, J sees Ryuichi comes
out from a room.
"Ryuichi-san, why you have to do that?" He burst
out that question as soon as Ryuichi turns his head.
"Do what?"
"Taking Inoran without my permission. It's the same as
kidnapping him!"
"I'm sorry, but Inoran is my patient, I have the rights
to take him back."
"I can take care of him. He's fine with me."
"He is right now, but can you guaranteed that he won't
get mad later? You can't handle it."
"I trust him." J insists. "I really can take
care of him."
Unfortunately, Ryuichi doesn't believe J and asking J to
leave the clinic. When Shinya takes J away under Ryuichi's order, Inoran
actually awake and see everything. He stares sadly at J, who's finally walking
away from the clinic.
***
J thinks that he won't see Inoran again because Ryuichi
never let him to meet Inoran again. So he must spend his days alone again,
without having Inoran by his side. It's quite amusing for him, how Inoran can
filled his days with so much fun, even though he's not talking to J. He missed
him so much. He wants Inoran to stay with him again, he wants to see his face
again, watching him sleeping peacefully, seeing him playing the guitar again.
He realized that he have this special feeling for him and it's different than
his feeling to Sugizo or to the girls.
Later that day, when J just got back home from his work, he found
Inoran sitting in front of his apartment's door again.
J let out a smile, "hey, you're running away from them
again?"
Inoran just stares at him.
"Well, they said they'll cure you if you stay
there....."
Inoran starts to pout.
"Ryuichi-san will kidnapped you again if you didn't
want to come back..."
Inoran quickly stands up, he looks disappointed and mad. He
pushes J away when J wants to takes him back and makes J almost fall from the
railings in the balcony.
"Ino...."
Inoran shakes his head, making a sign that he doesn't want
to come back to the clinic.
J stares at him for a while. He knows that this is the
chance to have him back again. Isn't he already said that he'll going to take
care of him in front of Ryuichi?
"Alright, you can stay here as long as you want."
Inoran finally calm and smiles. He follows J as he enter the
room. After taking a dinner and change his clothes, J let Inoran to sleep in
his bedroom.
"Good night."
J is about to walking away when Inoran catch his hand and
pulls him closer. Inoran still holds his hand and from his expression, J could
tell that he doesn't want J to leave him.
J just stares at Inoran. He knows that the person in front
of him now has a mental problem and after knowing what happened to Inoran in
the past, he regret that he doesn't know Inoran that time, otherwise he could
protect him and hitting those who bullied Inoran. Well, at least he could
protect Inoran now.
J caressed Inoran's face. He knows that people might think
that he's weird for falling in love with someone like Inoran, but he doesn't
care about that.
His face is getting closer to Inoran and he kiss Inoran's
lips tenderly. Inoran doesn't reply nor saying a word. He just keep silence and
looks surprised.
"Inoran," J caress his face again, "talk to
me."
Inoran still staring at J.
"Come on, don't be scared. I'll never let anyone hurt
you anymore. So, talk to me."
Inoran's mouth slightly opened, then a voice came out from
his mouth. A name. "Jun..... Jun...."
J grins, "that's right. Finally you can talk
again."
Inoran just smiles and hugs J. J caressed his hair. He
really loves that sweet smile of Inoran, right now, there's nothing abnormal
from that sweet smile which is now only meant for him.
Inoran let go of his hug after a while.
"Ino.. I love you." J finally said that.
Inoran looks confused. "Love.... me?"
"Yeah, I love you." J grins. Maybe Inoran doesn't
understand about why he loves him. Maybe he doesn't even understand what love
is, but it's alright. J can teach him anything he needs. He can even teach him
how to kiss. And maybe he can even teach him about sex. J grins widely.
***
OMAKE (special added part)
Several days later
The sound of bed creaking followed by moans can be heard
from J's bedroom. Inoran can't help but moans louder and almost scratch J's
shoulder with his nails as he reach his climax.
"Ino!" J thrust harder before finally reaching his
climax too and release the thick white liquid inside Inoran.
He's trying to catch his breath for a while when suddenly
the phone is ringing.
At first J ignores it, he prefer to lay his head on Inoran's
chest but Inoran hold his head. "Jun... Phone...." He points at the
phone.
J sigh and grabs his phone. "Yeah, Onose here."
"It's time for Inoran to go back and have
treatment......" Ryuichi's voice heard.
"Oh, you again. You still want him to go back and stay
at your place? You're so persistent..." J lazily answer.
"You can't just take him away like that......."
"Let him talk to you about what he wants." J gives
the phone to Inoran and making a sign to Inoran to talk to Ryuichi.
"Ryu-chan......."
"Ino-kun, let's go back, okay? You can be safe
here...."
"I'm sorry..." Inoran cut Ryuichi's words. "I
want to stay with Jun."
"Ino..."
"I love him." Inoran said that words with a smile.
"I love Jun."
There's no reply from Ryuichi.
J grabs his phone again. "See? You can't force him to
go back to your place. I'll make sure that he's safe with me."
Inoran take the chance to kiss J before J closed the phone.
Suddenly J had an idea. "We should teased him
more." J grabs a camera and take a selfie of him and Inoran kissing on the
bed, naked.
The photo arrived later at Ryuichi's place.
"That brat! I'm gonna take him back again! You should
help me, Sugi."
"No way," Sugizo said. "I don't want J ruined
my beautiful face." Sugizo takes a glance at the photo. "They look
happy. J never seems to be this happy when we are together. That makes me
envy." He then stares at Ryuichi. "You know what, maybe we should try
doing that too."
"What? Having a sex?"
Sugizo nods.
"In here?"
Sugizo just grins. He should say thank you to J after this
for giving him such an inspiration.
The end
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