Title: White Lilies For You
Author: Ai Mori
Fandom/band: Jrock/LUNA SEA
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG
Pairing: J x INORAN
Inspiring song: I want to give it all - Air Supply
Disclaimer: I don't own any people here, and I'm not writing this to harm any people on this fic
Author notes: So, it took a while to posted this story, that I made on the day he was born (^^) have to re-edit a couple of things on the story. so, this is my birthday fic for our lovely INORAN. I hope you can enjoy it ^^v
STORY
September 27
09.00 AM
"Are you going to celebrate your birthday in Hadano, niichan?" Koji asked to his brother on the phone.
"I don't know. I would love to. Maybe I'll go there for a while," Inoran answer, his fingers busily flapping through a music magazine.
"That would be great, okaasan and ojiisan will surely appreciate it," Koji replied.
Inoran smiles, "yes, it’s been a long time since I met them."
"Alright then, I'll meet you here. Ah, and Kenken is already in Tokyo today. He got some works to do there. If you want, you could go back together with him."
"Ok, thanks for letting me know." Inoran end up his call. His eyes stuck into the page where J is featured on that magazine. The picture exposed J's shirtless body, holding his bass like usual. Looking so hot and sexy, which will make all of his fans go crazy for him. And he is among all of them who falling in love with him. Not because of his hot and sexy body, but because he is Jun Onose, the one that always be his best friends.
Inoran unconsciously tracing J's face and the curve of J's body on the magazine. "I really want to see you, Jun," he whispers those words to himself. They haven't met each others after the TV show that unites all LUNA SEA member. J is busy with solo works. Inoran himself is busy too. His solo works tour has already started but he managed to get a time to rest near his birthday.
'I hope he remember my birthday,' Inoran wishes as he closed the magazine.
***
23.00 PM
Inoran walked back home tiredly after those interviews and meeting with his staff. He reached the key to his door lazily and just about to opens it when his foot hit something in front of his door.
A box is blocking his way to the door. The box is wrapped in a gift-paper.
Inoran feels confused. "Who put this here?" He kneels down to reach the box. Could this be a gift from his fans? But he is really sure that none of his fans knew about his house.
Inoran put the key and open the door. He slowly tears up the gift-paper, and opens the box.
He's a little bit surprised to see that the thing inside the box is a quite big Totoro doll. He grabs the doll and examines it closely. There's a small gift card, with words 'to Inoran' only, and it’s not handwriting, so he really doesn't know who sends it for him.
'Could it be...... Naaah, I don't think he will do something like this. Jun isn't this romantic.' He tries to think of the possibility that someone else sending him this present.
***
September 28
09.00 AM
Today is really a nice day. Its autumn already, but the skies are clear and the sun shining brightly. Inoran stretches out his arms and go to his balcony, enjoying the warm sunlight. He goes back inside to grab his camera and capture this beautiful scenery with his camera.
He sits on the bench and enjoying his free day. He close his eyes, still bathed in the warm sunlight. When suddenly, the ringtone of his cellphone interrupted his relaxing time.
Inoran grabbed his cellphone and answer it. He is hoping that J would call him, but no, the call is from his youngest brother, Kenji.
Inoran rise up from the bench, Kenji reminds him that they should be prepared to go to Hadano.
Inoran closed his phone after finished talking with Kenji who will be there soon. He will go to Hadano to see his parents after a long time. He'd been too busy to visit them recently. It should be nice to have a birthday party there. The only thing that missing is J.
Inoran grabbed his cellphone again and began to dial the number.
"Yes, J's here." The voice already makes Inoran's hand slightly trembled.
"Jun, it’s me, Ino. What are you doing now?"
"Ah, I'm still on rehearsal. What's the matter?"
"Um.. Well... Me and my brothers would like you to join us in my birthday party. In Hadano."
A brief silent. Then, "sorry, I can't go. I'm busy."
Inoran also silent for a while, then smiled a little. "O-okay then. Good luck on your rehearsal." Then he pushed the end button to ended up his call.
Inoran sighed. He really missed the way they were before. Usually at these times, J will take him somewhere and talked about music. Then celebrating his birthday, right on the changing of the day. But seems like he has to spend his birthday without him this year.
Another sigh. Did J realized that he needs him now? He really wants him to come, like the way they used to be. But he also have to understand, that maybe, J already think that his birthday isn't special anymore.
Inoran started to put several things on his backpack. He tries to convince himself that there's always be a good side of this. At least he will be at his parent's home, celebrating it with his family.
The doorbell ringing. Inoran quickly opens the door. He thought that it is Kenji, but the man that standing in front of his door isn't his youngest brother; instead it’s the delivery man.
"Mr. Inoran?" The delivery man asked.
"Yes."
"There's a package for you," the delivery man handed him a basket with two bottle of wine inside of it.
"From who?" Inoran received it and a little bit confused. As far as he knows, he never ordered something like this.
"Please sign here," the delivery man gives him a paper, and Inoran signed it. After that the delivery man leaves him, without telling him who is the sender of the gift.
Inoran put the basket in his table. Maybe it’s from his manager. He sends a message to express his gratitude to his manager, but the reply that came from his manager makes him confused. His manager said that it’s not from him. Inoran glance at the package. Then who is it that gives him this package?
***
11.00 AM
Kenji finally arrived at his house, smiling and holding a bouquet of flower on his hand.
"What's that? You already bought a flower?" Inoran surprised when he opens the door for Kenji.
"No, I found this in front of your door," Kenji explains and get in to the house.
Inoran accepted the flower. Again, the name of the sender isn't written on the greeting's card.
"It's really weird," Inoran sit on the sofa.
Kenji follows him. "What's wrong?"
"There's no sender's name on it. I already received another gifts like this." Inoran points at the Totoro doll.
Kenji is staring at the doll. "What a cute Totoro doll," he smiles cheerfully, and then noticing the basket on the table. "Isn't it too soon to have a party with this, onichan?" Kenji asks after he sees that there are two wines on it.
"It's also a gift from this unknown person," Inoran answered. He grabbed his cigarette and lit it up. He already called Ryuichi, Sugizo and Shinya but they said they didn't send him any gifts. The only person that he didn't call is J. He kinda hesitates to call J. But finally he does it.
"Yes?" J answered.
"I just want to say thank you for the gifts." Inoran briefly said.
"Wait, what gifts?"
"The Totoro doll, the wine, the flower bouquet."
"No, I didn't send you anything today," J replied.
"So.... Who's the one that send it? Fans didn't know my address, right?" Now Inoran looks more confused than before.
"I don't know," J replied. "Maybe you got another secret admirer."
Inoran doesn't reply it. He already lost in his mind. If J isn't the one that send him these gifts, then who does it?
"Listen, I have to do my rehearsal, so please don't disturb me anymore," J said.
"Jun.... Can you come tomorrow?" Inoran mumbled.
"Sorry," then J ended their conversation.
Inoran sighed.
"What's wrong, oniichan?" Kenji looks confused.
"Jun can't come," Inoran briefly replied.
"Well, I guess it can't be helped. But at least we are still celebrating it, right? Come on, cheer up, oniichan!" Kenji cheering up his brother.
Inoran gives him a smile. 'Yes, Kenken's right. Just because Jun can't come doesn't mean I have to be sad all the time.'
***
Afternoon, 15.00 PM
Inoran looking outside of the window inside the train that will take him to Hadano, Kanagawa. Kenji is still busy playing game beside him.
Suddenly, he remembered about someone. Someone who was already knew him before the other members of LUNA SEA. Someone who became his best friend, long before he knew his other fellow musician friends. Someone who taught him to played guitar, thus making him a right-handed guitar player, although he is actually lefty. It took him a bunch of practices to get used to played guitar with his right hand, but those efforts is already paid off now.
Jun Onose.
The one that he secretly loves.
No one ever knows about it. Not even Jun. He doesn't remember how this feeling of friendship turns into a love-struck, but it doesn't matter. As long as he could always stays beside J. As long as J still wants to be his friend.
And now he missed him so bad. He really missed his presence beside him. But it's impossible now, because J is busy with his live.
Inoran let out another sigh. He really wishes J could understand his feeling, that he really wants him to come tonight, after his show. But well, he might have to hide his love forever.
***
Night-time, 21.00 PM
After finished his dinner and talking to his parents, Inoran stepped back into the room that has been prepared for him by his parents. This room is a silent witness of his friendship with J. He never forget it, when J sat on this room and talked about how they should just made a band and became musician like their idols. J dreamt that they would become a rock star, and that dream already came true now.
Inoran clutches his new Totoro doll. He didn't know who is the person that sent this gift to him, but somehow, it’s really comfortable to hug this doll. Maybe J is right. Maybe it’s from his secret admirer. And maybe it’s time to forget about his love and start to have a serious relationship with someone else.
A knocking on the door makes him back to reality. "Niichan?" Koji slowly opens the door.
"Yeah?"
"There's a gift for you," Koji come in with a bouquet of white lilies on his hand.
Another bouquet of flowers. He really wonders now who is it that send all of this gifts to him. Could it be that one of his friends is lying about it? But he already called all of his friends, including Ken Lloyd and Hiroaki Hayama, but they had the same answers. They didn't send it.
Koji put the flower on the table. "You look uneasy. What's wrong?" Koji asked.
"Nothing, it’s just because I'm tired.”
“Really?” Koji staring at his brother, from the way he looks, Inoran knows that Koji doesn’t believe to what he says before.
“Well, actually I don't know who is the sender of all this gifts." Inoran sighed. He tried to grab his cigarette now.
"Maybe it’s from someone that loved you," Koji replied and sitting in front of his brother.
"But I don't know who."
"Maybe from a girl?"
Inoran stares at Koji. A girl. He never thought about that. If it’s true then maybe he could start a new relationship with her.
***
11.45 PM
Inoran checked his cell phone again. No new message. He is now taking a walk by himself, in the middle of the night, to buy beers and cigarettes. He also uses this time to take a walk around the places where he used to go when he was still in his school-days. This surely brings back the memories.
Tears starting to formed in his eyes as he remembered how they were so close to each other. Inoran wiped away the tears quickly. It's really hard to forget about this feeling. He knows it already.
Another minutes passed by. He should be going home now. His brothers might still awake.
***
September 29
12.00 AM
"Happy birthday to me," Inoran mumbled. Several messages arrived on his cell phone. He smiled a little when reading it. It’s from all of his friends. But the smile fades away when he realized that J doesn't send him any message, not even a birthday greeting.
Inoran sit on the stairs that lead to the riverbank. He lit up his cigarette, and just watching the river streams. It’s cold already and he didn't bring his jacket. His body slightly trembled because of the coldness.
***
12.30 AM
He already runs out of beer. It’s kinda sad to spend the changing of his age all alone. But Inoran always like being a loner.
And just when he thinks that he couldn't stay any longer there, suddenly there's a jacket wrapping up his body.
"Ino," The voice makes him surprised and turned his head.
"Jun?" Inoran looks surprised. He rub his eyes, afraid that his longing to J making him imagining things. But no, he's not dreaming. J is standing in front of him now.
"It’s already late, what are you doing here?" J asks.
Waiting for you. Inoran would love to say that. But the words that came out from his mouth are: "I'm trying to get a fresh air."
"Its cold here, look," J touches Inoran's face and that touch alone is enough to make Inoran's shivers. "Your lips already turned blue."
"Yeah, I.. I'm just about to go back home now." Inoran couldn't take his eyes off from the tall bassist now. Just when he thought that he should forget his feeling, J came.
"Alright, let's go together," J grab his shoulder, and pulling him closer.
Inoran blushed a little, though he still acts like the way he used to be. "Why did you come?"
"So you don't expect me to come?"
"No, I mean... You said you can't come." Inoran hold the jacket that J gave him.
"Well, I thought I couldn't come but luckily I can use a little time to go here." J explained.
J still wrapped his arms around Inoran's shoulder as they walked to Ino's house.
Inoran trying to cherish the moment, now that J is here beside him, it’s like he doesn't need anything more.
"Jun."
"Yeah?"
"I.. I feel like I don't want to go home tonight." Inoran told him something that he had in his mind now.
J stopped and staring at Inoran's eyes. "You have a problem with your family members?"
"Nope, I just want to spend tonight... With you," Inoran feels his cheeks get blushed slightly after saying those words.
J just staring for a while and then he smiles. "Okay then."
***
01.00 AM
"Sorry the place is a little bit messy," J arranging a few things in the room. Its J's room. The room where Inoran spent his school-days with him, practicing guitar and bass. “Too bad that my parents weren’t here, they have to go to my sis’ house.”
“It’s okay.” At least he could spent tonight only with J.
Inoran looking around the room, there's a few changes has been made to this room than the last time he came here.
"Make yourself comfortable, okay?" J takes a blanket from his cupboard.
Inoran take off the jacket. "Jun....."
"Do you want something warm to drink?"
"Actually..... I want to say something..."
J stares at Inoran and stopped what he's doing now.
"I.. I.. I really am waiting for you that time. I really wish you could be with me, like the way we spent my birthday before. I kinda disappointed when you said that you can't come. I thought that you already forget about me."
"Ino..."
"I love you," Inoran conveys his feeling. "I really love you, more than anyone else." Then he looks down at the floor. There's a mixed feeling inside of him now. He feels relieved that he finally could say those words. But he also afraid that J would reject him or saying that he's crazy.
Suddenly, J's hand cupped his chin and makes him staring at his eyes again.
"I'm sorry I made you waiting for a long time," he said it in a low voice. Then he kissed Inoran tenderly.
Inoran tensed a little. But finally he closed his eyes, and wrapping his arms around J's neck as their kiss become more passionate.
When they finally break the kiss, J whispers to Inoran, "Happy birthday, Ino-chan," J strokes his hair lightly. "I love you too," J smiles. Inoran replied by smiling sweetly to J. "Thank you, Junjun."
***
05.30 AM
Inoran opens his eyes and turned around. J is sleeping beside him, hugging him by the waist. Inoran caressed his hair, and leaning down to kiss his forehead, cheeks and then his lips.
"Good morning, birthday boy," J said after Inoran kissed him.
"Good morning, my lover," Inoran smiles. "You're just pretending to be sleep, right?"
J laughed. "You got me." J sits on the bed, "anyway, I want to give you a birthday gift." J rises from the bed and grabs something from his bag then gives it to Inoran.
"What is this?" The thing that J gave is a small box. Inoran opens it, and see a rosary necklace inside of it.
"I bought that when I'm on tour. I thought you would like it."
"I like it, thanks." Then suddenly he remembers something. "Ah, I should go back home now."
"I walk you home, okay?"
Inoran nodded.
***
10.00 AM
After talking with Inoran's parents and brothers, J came to Inoran's room.
"I still didn't know who is the sender of those gift," Inoran points at the Totoro doll, the wine and the white lilies bouquet. "There's also another bouquet in my place."
J touches the white lilies, "do you know the meaning of white lilies?"
"Nope," Inoran shake his head.
"It's means sincerity, innocence and devotion. By giving white lilies, it means the person who sends it wants to show you a sincere love, full of respect and devotion."
"I didn't know you like flowers too," Inoran commented.
"That's what the florist said to me," J laughed, "I need a suggestion about which flowers that suits your personality."
Inoran silence for a while. Then he realized, "so you're the one who send all of those gifts?"
J laughed again, "yeah, can't you noticed it?"
"I already thought of it. But you said you didn't send it," Inoran gave a cute pout.
"I'm lying," J grins. "This time I really got you, right?"
"Meanie Junjun!" Inoran still pouted.
J is about to kiss him again when suddenly Kenji opens the door, "oniichan, let's have a party now."
"Okay," Inoran reach out his hand to J, "come on Jun."
"Rightaway," J takes Inoran's hand and smiles.
***
A Year Later
September 29
Inoran is still preparing for his birthday live. He already done the check sound and is now wearing the clothes for his performance tonight. Several messages arrived in his cell phone; all of it is the birthday greetings from all of his friends.
“Here comes the flowers,” one of his staff said. Inoran stepped out from the dressing room to see the flowers greetings. It’s from Sugizo, Ryuichi, Hyde and some more. The flowers from J still not arrived.
A staff talks to him and tells him the detail of today’s live when finally another flowers come. The first one is from Shinya and then J. The white lilies bouquet is arranged beautifully along with a birthday message. Inoran smiles.
A message came to his cell phone. From J. The message is: ‘Happy birthday, baby. Good luck with your live. I love you.’
Inoran smiles and send a reply message to J, ‘thanks for the white lilies. I love you too. Let’s spend another night together after this. xxxx.’
As the message has been sent, Inoran walks away with a sweet smile on his face.
It doesn't happen every day
But it happened to me once before
Those early years I threw away
Now I only have to hear your voice
To make me feel so sure
That your love is why
I want to give it all (Air Supply)
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