[FANFIC: IN SILENCE]

Title: IN SILENCE
Author: Ai Mori
Fandom/band: Jrock/LUNA SEA
Genre: Romance
Rating: M 
Pairing: J x INORAN
Disclaimer: I don't own any people here, and I'm not writing this to harm any people on this fic. They are real people and this is pure fiction.

Author Notes: DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE AGAINST YAOI. Review will be gladly accepted. 

this is actually a part of my first LUNA SEA song fics collection in Indonesian which then being translated to English by myself. This story contained several things that unexplained in the original Indonesian story. Please enjoy.

BGM: Loveless - LUNA SEA

IN SILENCE

J is accompanying Sugizo doing his task, choosing the right object for his photo. Sugizo is now studying photography and he need to find a good scenery for his college task.

Sugizo asked J to go to the riverside with him, and J accepted it simply because he's getting bored on his own.

Sugizo is still busily looking for an object to be captured with his camera while J is just sitting on the ground, smoking. 

Suddenly, his eyes caught a young man, apparently on the same age with him, walking into the river stream. Instead of afraid, that man seems like enjoying and admiring the river stream in front of him. He kept on walking into the middle of the river.

Somehow, J noticed that the young man is smiling as if he found something in the river stream, but then, J got worried because this river is known as one of the deepest river in Japan.

His worries came true when the man suddenly fell down near the middle of the river.

Without hesitating, J throw away his cigarette and running into the river to help that man.

The man is now drowning, he tried to reach out his hands and gasping as the river stream washed away his body. J grabbed his hand and pulled him away from the middle part of the river, though the man struggled and try to release himself from J.

"Don't go there, the river is deep!", J told the man once they arrived at the riverside.

"Jun-chan, what's wrong?", Sugizo came.

The man staring at J and Sugizo but he didn't say anything, not even a thank you after J saved his life. He only staring at J and seems like he doesn't care about his wet body. J is the same too because his clothes are getting wet when he saved this man. Then J noticed how this man is so beautiful, he almost look like a girl. He got a long brown hair and also a sharp eyes.

"Are you okay?", Sugizo asked to the man. That man answered Sugizo with another staring right into Sugizo's eyes, but he still won't say anything. And then he averted his gaze into the ground.

"There you are!", a man came running into them. "I've been searching for you everywhere," he approaches the young man who still sitting on the ground.

"He almost drowned in the river," J explained when the other man looking at him and Sugizo.

"Well, thank you for saving his life," the other man replied, he helped the young man stand up. "He often came here, but this is the first time he goes into the river."

"Is he can't talk?", Sugizo asked.

The young man stared again at him. While the other man just smiled, "he can. But he decided not to talk anymore." That man noticed how the young man staring at Sugizo and smiled to him, "come on, Ino, don't be so tense, they saved your life."

The young man suddenly grabbed the other man arms.

"Ah, why don't you come to my place, you have to dry yourself and also I have to say thank you for saving him," said the other man.

J and Sugizo agreed with him and followed him. J got shocked when they arrived in front of a mental clinic.

"Wait, this is....," Sugizo didn't continue his words. He is surprised too.

"Yes, this is my place. His name is Inoran. And I'm Kawamura Ryuichi, his therapist," Ryuichi explained.

Inoran stepped into the clinic and left them without saying anything. J’s eyes followed him as he goes into one of the room and entered the room.

“So, that Inoran guy, is he one of your patients here?” Sugizo asked.

Ryuichi nods. “He never wants to talk to someone, and he got some problems too with his emotions.” Ryuichi stares at J. “Here. I got dry clothes for you,” Ryuichi tells J to follow him into one of the room. He gives J a shirt and a pants that he takes from the drawer before leaving him to change his clothes.

J quickly removes his wet clothes and changes his clothes. He's already wear the pants and about to wear the shirt when suddenly someone comes in without warning. J doesn't realize it until he turns his back and just stand on his feet without saying anything.

It's Inoran. He already change his clothes and just stares at J too before finally turns his gaze away.

J just stand still. There's something about Inoran that makes him can't take his eyes off him. He looks so beautiful yet so fragile and that attracts him to know Inoran more.

***

After that incident, Sugizo is getting more closer to Ryuichi than to him. He often asks J to accompany him to meet Ryuichi. J sometimes thinks that maybe Sugizo would tell Ryuichi that he's got a mental problem too so he could stay at Ryuichi's place.

One thing that makes J agree to accompany Sugizo is the fact that he could meet Inoran there. Ryuichi often asks Inoran to stay with them, but Inoran will only sits in the corner and keeping his eye on them without saying anything. At first, it makes J uncomfortable, but now, he's already getting used with it.

After a while, J and Sugizo are walking back home from the clinic.

"Do you like Ryuichi-san?" J suddenly asking to Sugizo.

"Hmm... Well, I think so," Sugizo answers, "I'm free to like anyone else, right?"

J grins, "yeah, it's alright. At least we could stay as a friend."

Now it's Sugizo who laugh, "of course." He pats J's shoulder, "don't worry about that, ok? See you tomorrow."

J just smiles. He walks alone to his apartment without noticing that there's someone else who follows him. That person just stay quiet as he see J enters his apartment room.

***

That day, J just came back from his job, when he see someone sitting in front of his apartment door. That person is Inoran.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" J looks confused. Luckily he doesn't have a roommate in this room.

Inoran doesn't answer it. He only stares at the floor, like a child that has been caught doing something bad and now being scolded by his parent.

The cold wind is blowing and J notice that Inoran looks pale, his lips already turns blue and his hands are very cold. J quickly takes Inoran inside and told him to sit on the sofa while he makes a warm coffee for him.

As soon as the coffee is finished, J gives him to Inoran that receives it happily. J takes a can of beer from the refrigerator and asks, "did you tell Ryuichi-san that you'll come here?"

Inoran stops his drinking. He seems doesn't like it when J asking about Ryuichi.

"Alright, you can stay here for a while," J says, "but if he search for you, you must come back."  Inoran pouts, he doesn't want to look at J.

J sits beside him, "I really want to know why you came here. Can you tell me the reason?"

Inoran doesn't answer. He stares at J for a while.

"Well, that's okay, you can talk to me anytime you want," J gives up after a few minutes of silence, then stand up, "are you hungry?"

Inoran nods.

"Then, I'll make a dinner for us." J went to the kitchen and preparing some food. He didn't notice that Inoran is keeping his eye on him.

***

After a while, J is getting used to have Inoran on his house. Although Inoran still doesn't want to speak to him, but he begin to express his thoughts by writing it on a notes. But there's something that J really wants to know, about why Inoran suddenly stop talking.

J tries to ask it directly to Inoran, but Inoran refused to explain about it. So he must find another way to found out why he doesn't want to talk to anyone anymore.

That day, Ryuichi came with Sugizo to J's place. They met with Inoran who just finished playing with J's guitar.

Inoran just stay quiet when he see Ryuichi. He seems very hesistant to go. J is still away from home to buy some groceries when Ryuichi and Sugizo came. Sugizo still have J's roomkey so he can enter the room freely without J's permission.

"Let's go back, Ino," Ryuichi said, but Inoran just shake his head. He puts the guitar down and try to run, but before he managed to escape, Sugizo hold his hand. Inoran struggle to release himself when suddenly Ryuichi injected a medicine to him and makes him sleep. Sugizo quickly catch him.

"Let's go now," Ryuichi told Sugizo. Sugizo nods and takes Inoran with him to go back to the clinic, just in time before J arrives.

The moment when J finally get back home, he's surprised by the fact that Inoran was gone. He knows that Inoran won't dare to leave his place on his own. So, there's only one possibility about where he went. Ryuichi's clinic.

***

"I'm really sorry, but Inoran-san is under treatment now, you can't meet him." A guy named Shinya Yamada told J when he wants to see Inoran in the clinic.

"He's fine now. Ryuichi shouldn't kidnapped him like that!" J insists.

"But you still can't meet him now."

"Then you should told me why he must doing this treatment again!"

Shinya just stay quiet for a while. He stares at J. This guy is so persistent about meeting Inoran. Looks like he won't leave unless he tells him all about Inoran that he knows. He sigh then starts to explain everything to J as he takes him to sit on a bench.

So, apparently something bad happened to Inoran in the past. When he was still in high school, his family was killed in an accident and he was the only survivor because he didn't join his family on that trip. Knowing that, the neighbors started to talk about him, they said that he was so ungrateful because he refused to go with his family before the accident happened. Inoran also have to sold his house because he was so fed up about those talks and the fact that none of his family wanted to helped him after that. In school, he was being bullied over the fact that he was now very poor, that he can't even join the school trip and have no family to came in a parent-teacher meeting. All of that burdened up on Inoran's mind, causing him can't think clearly and killed someone who tried to hit him with a knife. But that time the police had a hard time to charged him because he refused to talk to anyone, not even to a lawyer. A psychiatrist has been called and after several test, they concluded that Inoran has got a mental disorder which caused him emotion unstable. From that day on, he was being taken care in this clinic and only Ryuichi that can makes him talk.

When Shinya finished the explanation, J sees Ryuichi comes out from a room.

"Ryuichi-san, why you have to do that?" He burst out that question as soon as Ryuichi turns his head.

"Do what?"

"Taking Inoran without my permission. It's the same as kidnapping him!"

"I'm sorry, but Inoran is my patient, I have the rights to take him back."

"I can take care of him. He's fine with me."

"He is right now, but can you guaranteed that he won't get mad later? You can't handle it."

"I trust him." J insists. "I really can take care of him."

Unfortunately, Ryuichi doesn't believe J and asking J to leave the clinic. When Shinya takes J away under Ryuichi's order, Inoran actually awake and see everything. He stares sadly at J, who's finally walking away from the clinic.

***

J thinks that he won't see Inoran again because Ryuichi never let him to meet Inoran again. So he must spend his days alone again, without having Inoran by his side. It's quite amusing for him, how Inoran can filled his days with so much fun, even though he's not talking to J. He missed him so much. He wants Inoran to stay with him again, he wants to see his face again, watching him sleeping peacefully, seeing him playing the guitar again. He realized that he have this special feeling for him and it's different than his feeling to Sugizo or to the girls.

Later that day, when J just got back home from his work, he found Inoran sitting in front of his apartment's door again.

J let out a smile, "hey, you're running away from them again?"

Inoran just stares at him.

"Well, they said they'll cure you if you stay there....."

Inoran starts to pout.

"Ryuichi-san will kidnapped you again if you didn't want to come back..."

Inoran quickly stands up, he looks disappointed and mad. He pushes J away when J wants to takes him back and makes J almost fall from the railings in the balcony.

"Ino...."

Inoran shakes his head, making a sign that he doesn't want to come back to the clinic.

J stares at him for a while. He knows that this is the chance to have him back again. Isn't he already said that he'll going to take care of him in front of Ryuichi?

"Alright, you can stay here as long as you want."

Inoran finally calm and smiles. He follows J as he enter the room. After taking a dinner and change his clothes, J let Inoran to sleep in his bedroom.

"Good night."

J is about to walking away when Inoran catch his hand and pulls him closer. Inoran still holds his hand and from his expression, J could tell that he doesn't want J to leave him.

J just stares at Inoran. He knows that the person in front of him now has a mental problem and after knowing what happened to Inoran in the past, he regret that he doesn't know Inoran that time, otherwise he could protect him and hitting those who bullied Inoran. Well, at least he could protect Inoran now.

J caressed Inoran's face. He knows that people might think that he's weird for falling in love with someone like Inoran, but he doesn't care about that.

His face is getting closer to Inoran and he kiss Inoran's lips tenderly. Inoran doesn't reply nor saying a word. He just keep silence and looks surprised.

"Inoran," J caress his face again, "talk to me."

Inoran still staring at J.

"Come on, don't be scared. I'll never let anyone hurt you anymore. So, talk to me."

Inoran's mouth slightly opened, then a voice came out from his mouth. A name. "Jun..... Jun...."

J grins, "that's right. Finally you can talk again."

Inoran just smiles and hugs J. J caressed his hair. He really loves that sweet smile of Inoran, right now, there's nothing abnormal from that sweet smile which is now only meant for him.

Inoran let go of his hug after a while.

"Ino.. I love you." J finally said that.

Inoran looks confused. "Love.... me?"

"Yeah, I love you." J grins. Maybe Inoran doesn't understand about why he loves him. Maybe he doesn't even understand what love is, but it's alright. J can teach him anything he needs. He can even teach him how to kiss. And maybe he can even teach him about sex. J grins widely.

***

OMAKE (special added part)

Several days later

The sound of bed creaking followed by moans can be heard from J's bedroom. Inoran can't help but moans louder and almost scratch J's shoulder with his nails as he reach his climax.

"Ino!" J thrust harder before finally reaching his climax too and release the thick white liquid inside Inoran.

He's trying to catch his breath for a while when suddenly the phone is ringing.

At first J ignores it, he prefer to lay his head on Inoran's chest but Inoran hold his head. "Jun... Phone...." He points at the phone.

J sigh and grabs his phone. "Yeah, Onose here."

"It's time for Inoran to go back and have treatment......" Ryuichi's voice heard.

"Oh, you again. You still want him to go back and stay at your place? You're so persistent..." J lazily answer.

"You can't just take him away like that......."

"Let him talk to you about what he wants." J gives the phone to Inoran and making a sign to Inoran to talk to Ryuichi.

"Ryu-chan......."

"Ino-kun, let's go back, okay? You can be safe here...."

"I'm sorry..." Inoran cut Ryuichi's words. "I want to stay with Jun."

"Ino..."

"I love him." Inoran said that words with a smile. "I love Jun."

There's no reply from Ryuichi.

J grabs his phone again. "See? You can't force him to go back to your place. I'll make sure that he's safe with me."

Inoran take the chance to kiss J before J closed the phone.

Suddenly J had an idea. "We should teased him more." J grabs a camera and take a selfie of him and Inoran kissing on the bed, naked.

The photo arrived later at Ryuichi's place.

"That brat! I'm gonna take him back again! You should help me, Sugi."

"No way," Sugizo said. "I don't want J ruined my beautiful face." Sugizo takes a glance at the photo. "They look happy. J never seems to be this happy when we are together. That makes me envy." He then stares at Ryuichi. "You know what, maybe we should try doing that too."

"What? Having a sex?"

Sugizo nods.

"In here?"

Sugizo just grins. He should say thank you to J after this for giving him such an inspiration.

The end